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Poster: high flow Date: Dec 8, 2006 4:02pm
Forum: GratefulDead Subject: Re: An Parental Head's Dilemma

Daliguana - Margaret and I started dating around the age of 20. Almost 36 now too. We fell in to the whole crank thing here in CA.

It was a short 2 years, but my life changed. I've known folks who have found their way back and those who haven't. You've gotta to have something to grab-hold of. For me, I just missed my family.

I couldn't look any body in the eye when I was high on that stuff, so I just stayed away. Got straight, cold-turkey almost 10 years ago. My parents and in-laws barely know the half of what Maggs and I went through....they need not know.

We're happy and healthy today. Whenever I hear about meth and it's victims, I get sad. It's like the airplane crash survivor. The guy in the next seat dies and you live, but feel guilty. I feel bad for those who lose their way w/ drugs and I wonder why I was able to return from the living-dead...just lucky, I guess.

Meth: Steals your soul and rots your body...mmmm, mmmmm, good cracker!

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Poster: Earl B. Powell Date: Dec 8, 2006 4:51pm
Forum: GratefulDead Subject: Re: An Parental Head's Dilemma

Flow: There's folks that are destined to never get it. Never have that sense of drowning. Never feel lost, never get the wake up call. I don't know whether it's genetic, or apathy or what, but you shouldn't feel responsible for their fates. There has to be some time in a persons life when they act of their own accord, face the music, and dig themselves out of the hole they created of their own free will. You should have learned that lesson better than anyone, by your own experience.

...and your own free will is the only thing that guarantees a life free from that kind of prison.

Congratulations on making it.

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Poster: high flow Date: Dec 8, 2006 10:46pm
Forum: GratefulDead Subject: Re: An Parental Head's Dilemma

Thanks Earl. Too true. I currently have a cousin and in-law struggling against the meth beast, and losing. I have a realistic perspective. These are grown-up people who walked eyes-open in to the slimy world of meth....what happens from here is their choice. Nobody can help really.

Blues Traveler - Regarding Steven Lyrics

Well I've guessed your name and I'm sure you know
I'd like to discuss our mutual friend

can't help but feel that I left him behind
Does he
still stay with you or did his pain ever end

I don't deserve to know
If he ever let
I guess I don't really need to see
If he
wound up with you or did he ever break free

When we
were both young, you took us in
And taught us to play
survival games
He'd lost so much that you let him
But I had a home so it just wasn't the same
I had the strength To look you in the eye
say goodbye
I was lucky And I didn't have to
Does he still stay with you or did he get away

I used what I had and I escaped
I smelled something
good and I followed its track
But all he could smell was
the world that you shaped
It took all my strength and I
just couldn't look back
I remember him Calling after me
I keep that memory
The last thing
he screamed out aloud
Was "Hey don't you leave me
alone!" Yeah he might live with you but he called me his

I guessed your name and some day so will he
Cause one of these ides he's gonna break free
one of these ides he's gonna break free
Cause one of
these ides he's gonna break...

If you're dealing w/ a friend or relative on dope, you know what Popper's saying...

Thanks again Earl. Your post reminded me of this tune.

This post was modified by high flow on 2006-12-09 06:46:05

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Poster: daliguana Date: Dec 8, 2006 7:22pm
Forum: GratefulDead Subject: Re: An Parental Head's Dilemma

Yeah, I had to remove myself from the 'people, places and things'. Fate was shining on me in the fact that we left town to care for a relative - and our child was conceived right as we left! Saved our lives. We were pretty much done with it, but I relapsed for a couple months after returning. Love of a good woman and the birth of our child got me straight. Been clean for three years now. Good to see that some make it out alive.